Sunday, April 25, 2010

words of wisdom?

Since having a blog I have also taken interest in reading other people's blogs..
Well, it hasn't been that many but enough to make me realise that generally bloggers
are good writers! The one I'm referring to are my students (cuz their blogs are mostly
what I read..) Guess that's why they write the blogs in the first place.

Anyway it's great to know that they write good stuff in their blogs, that they have insight, are reflective and are quite expressive..

Then I think of my blog and feel ashamed as I seem to be my only audience so far.. plus I don't know whether I have insight and am being `deep' or anything like that..

Yet I continue writing for it has become an outlet to pour my thoughts and feelings which has all become a little therapeutic for me at times when I need to just express myself.

So.. don't judge me ok readers? (if you're reading this!)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Death

This is usually something people don't want to think about, yet everyone will face it one day.
Thinking of it is actually called for in Islam so that one will live their life more carefully knowing the fact that life on earth doesn't last forever.

I believe that I think of it occasionally if not often.. not in a way that makes me all worked up but it comes across me in some situations. I pray that I will die in peace and in a good way. There is a doa' I recite after prayers that asks that from God..

Anyway, I was just observing this yesterday when I went to visit my late grandmother's and aunt's grave, that people tend to die after their birthdays.. I mean like 2 or 3 months after. I was looking at other people's tombstones and reading the names and dates they had died and made this conclusion.. I think I've noticed this for quite some time too - not by visiting graves..

But then again one can't really say this for sure because death can come without any warning and if you are destined to die, it will not be any second later.. My sister's childhood friend who is also our neighbour, died last month trying to give birth to her fourth child at the age of 30 (her birthday was in January).. and nobody saw that coming of course..

Bottom line is.. we will all die. So what we need to do is to be technically `prepared' for it.. to live this life well and do all that God asks us to do.. to not waste our lives away..

Friday, April 9, 2010

"occupational hazards"

A defininition from the net:

What is meant by Occupational Hazards?

Every occupation is associated with certain risks because of which the person can get

1. Certain diseases

2. Injuries, etc.

This can happen suddenly or may take years. In simple words - "Occupational Hazards" mean damage to health or injuries at work place.


Ok, the teaching profession is certainly not one where you can get hurt - physically.
Or contract diseases.. unless you get infected by other tchrs or stdnts sickness..
Or if you fall down a flight of stairs - which I know someone has experienced..

Yet, in my almost 11 teaching years, I think most teachers can vouch for this too, that they can get themselves `injured' still.., if not often, at least several times in their teaching careers..

And what gets injured?


Their heart.

This is probably my week of an outpouring of emotions and so my heart seems a little fragile.
I don't think I'm overreacting nor am I being irrational whenever I feel this way.
It's just that some things just get to me!
I am not the type who gets angry often or easily and when I do, I often end up feeling like the bad guy cuz I hate having to be mad.

I believe I'm easy to please. I forgive easily to a fault..
But it has to be earned too, one can't deserve all that without holding their end of the bargain.

It's just frustrating to feel that sometimes the subject you teach is less important than others.. English is ever the `fun' subject and I think where most students can have fun in (as compared to Maths).. but does it deserve lesser attention and meaning to one's life?

I really don't know why I'm so upset and whether I should let this go on.. (it has been going on since I left class at 12.30 just now)..

All I know is that I got upset because I felt that there was no initiative towards the task and not even an apology.. do they realize what they did even after I told them?

I get over these things eventually and will still feel the same when it happens again. I'll forgive them and still teach them. Yet I hope this is something I will face with less sentimentality in the future to avoid further `injuries' to my heart..


So.. can
having your heart `injured' be considered an occupational hazard too?
Because this happens to people like us.
So I guess the answer is yes.




- the sentimental fool-



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